How can I be nice to you today? I heard an author say this on Oprah. It caught my attention and I love the way it sounds, so much that it inspired me to write this blog.
My single hood seems to be on-going and at times I feel like it will never end but then something happens and somehow I believe again.
With having a steady person of interest in my life, I come across areas of relationshipness that I want to work on.
I have spent the last 2 years working on myself. I made a promised that I would not commit or allow someone else to commit to me if I wasn't a whole and conscious woman nor will accept that from someone else.
What benefit would I be if I werestill harboring fear from previous relationships gone wrong, mistakes I've made, they've made and not practicing the art of forgiveness? Not very beneficial at all. I'm still wonderful in essence but I needed work and I'm never going to be perfect but I know I will make a fantastic life partner.
I have so much to offer, I astound myself. I'm rooting for the person who wins my heart because it's really a very special place to be and I want to wake up and say, how can I be nice to you today when I'm pissed off at him for something he did or when the flame dies down and you have to put forth effort and do those things you don't want to do... or how about, HATE doing. LOL
The errors of my ways lies in my wanting to give up when someone did not measure up or when they didn't show promise right away. Yes that's how I've been til this very day, but I've made a decision to not do that. I've been accepting and non-judgmental in so many areas, I think I can conquer this. I have an issue with someone who is WASTING MY TIME. I guess it's a fear or I can chalk it up to just not liking it. Don't waste my time.
I actually enjoy the process of getting to know someone and taking our time, it's so fun and beautiful. Learning the things about them that didn't come with a question. Sharing life stories, eating good food, walking around, going bike riding, sitting in the house in the dark lying on the floor with your legs intertwined, and the only light is the moon light and street lights shining through the window... listening to music and not saying anything and every now and then a kiss on the shoulder or hand or cheek or where ever is placed, running your fingers across his head, just some romantic gestures and things that are precious. I know I'm going a little off subject but that creates a physical connection that doesn't always involve sex. Sex, that's easy and can be done with anyone, anywhere, at anytime... but you can't reach down into the depths of someone and feel their love and connect with their inner peace, embrace their spirit.
To have some one who gets it and who is just as willing to get it right... meaning whose list of goals for the day has "How can I be nice to her/him today?" ..... MAN! that's priceless.
